BLeh!

One of the biggest lies you learn when you are in Middle/High School and start learning about being pregnant is that you will have morning sickness. It's not a lie because you don't get it, it's a lie because not everyone gets this symptom in the same ways... and therefore should not be just limited to morning, or in my case, sickness. I've only been sick twice, never in the morning, and that is more than enough, but it's the ways in which it happened that are worth mentioning. Every other day has been a CONSTANT battle with nausea and food aversions. It's really annoying. 

The first sickness happened before I took the initial pregnancy test. Why didn't I think something was up, you say? Well, at the time I was teaching 1st graders and one of them had decided to come to school with a stomach bug the day before. (Come on parents... please don't infect 20 people by sending your child to school because they are crazy and you can't handle them at home.) Anyway, I went outside, came inside a few minutes later, felt all weird, and BLeh! For the record, I did think "Hm, that's not normal", but like I said earlier, I thought the stomach bug was on its way. Lesson: thinking "hm, that's not normal" probably means "it's not normal", listen to Oprah.

The second time was yesterday. And I'm angry about it. All I wanted to do yesterday was just lie around the house and do NOTHING. I've made a promise to myself that I will take as much of my weekends back as possible and not feel bad for not grading my tests for Monday or  making pretty posters and games for my students. I'm at school at least 1-2 hours past my contract, everyday, I'm not giving them my weekends too. Anyway, being a bum, when dinner time came I had no motivation to go to the grocery store to buy food to make a meal, so it was either going to be delivery or come up with something I already had. Delivery won. Until... my stupid internet isn't working properly and won't let me on to certain sites... ironically any site with food delivery phone numbers. (Comcast is SO lucky the plan is under Jerry's  name or they would have had Angry Pregnant Sarah on their phone.) Off to the kitchen I go. Looking amongst my extremely random food supply, the only appetizing thing just happened to be instant pudding. Knowing I will feel fat and guilty later, I decide to compromise and try to force myself to eat some pasta first. Just cooking the stuff made me... BLeh! Not good, pasta has always been my "I don't want to cook anything tonight" safety net. What did I have for dinner... instant pudding. And I didn't feel guilty. =)  Lesson: don't force yourself to eat anything you really don't want.

Why be upset about food? I am so proud of my metamorphosis out of the "Picky Eater Club" and in the past few years have made it a point to actually give my taste buds something to get excited about. Since becoming pregnant, much to my dismay, I have resorted back to my 15 year-old self. Eating dinner is an even bigger process than before, I just CAN'T think of ANYTHING that I want to eat. Absolutely nothing sounds tasty except extremely random things - instant pudding for dinner? Grapes, cinnamon buns and garlic bread for dinner? I did crave one normal thing, a bacon cheeseburger. But, I forgot the ketchup and couldn't eat it. Jerry was so concerned that I would get upset he even searched his car for ketchup packets, with no luck, and offered to go get some (no, I didn't let him go to the store for something stupid). 

Restaurants? Forget it (except Mimi's, I'll always love Mimi's). Jerry and I went to a restaurant, I looked at the menu, and couldn't find ONE thing. All I wanted was their bread, just like 15 year-old Sarah. I almost cried because of a menu. I suffered through Jerry's meal, tried to pick at mine and got ice cream from across the street after. 

Ah, then there is the grocery store. This is just a disaster. I have to go in with a list, stick to it, and find the food as fast as I can. Almost everything looks and smells disgusting. I've even resorted once or twice to grabbing a bottle of Ginger Ale from the cooler before shopping to drink while shopping. 

In all honesty, I've had this morning sickness thing pretty easy compared to some people, and it is really more annoying than anything. I've heard nightmare stories of people being sick all day, and I've even seen a few co-workers in the past running for the bathroom. Please know that I am SOOO GLAD that was not me. As a teacher, running to the bathroom and leaving 20 kids alone is frowned upon and I'm thankful that I didn't have to come up with an emergency plan. I just can't wait until I can get back to eating like I used to, and stop carrying these TUMS around! 

Until then, off to the left over pudding... =)